Step three is making a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understand Him.
In class today we veteran alcoholics discussed step 3. Surprisingly most of all the veterans believed in God, some choose to call him their High Power. I choose to call him God.
For me I believed but that is as far as it went. I lost being in touch with God during the Vietnam war, I think I saw to much, did to much to believe a loving God could let it all happen.
I had traded God in for a bottle and I really
never learned to love after that. I think my
soul and conscience just became hardened.
I felt nothing except for what I wanted and
if I wanted it, I did anything to get it.
Letting God into my life was a challenge
for me because, I could let him in but
would he forgive me for all the destruction
I had created in my life? Some other
Veterans spoke up and said he would, if
I asked, this all seemed to simple for me.
Some other alcoholic veterans said they
already had turned there lives and wills
over to God, but I didn't see any changes
in them. The class was now over, but
I would discuss this with several other
alcoholic veterans for the next several days. It seemed like the instructor Fred had given my soul and conscience a kick
start. I was glad we had several more
Step 3 classes to attend.
Author: Alden Morrison
