You Must Learn To Control Your Emotions
Fear effects my thoughts and the way I
act. I don't think I have any fears but
they could be hidden and I am told that
they are the most dangerous to have.
So I meditate on it and try to be as honest
as I can with myself. I am afraid of
getting really sick, I know I don't fear
criticism or I would not be doing this
blog. I think about my two children
and it scares me that they might get
hurt or end up as alcoholics like I am.
I have no other relationships, so there
are no anxieties there and at 65 I do
not plan on any, been there and done
that hell, of course the hell was all my
doing. I may have some fears hidden
in my past that have not come up yet.
I am currently working on my Step 4,
in conjunction with a drug/alcohol
curve and this should shake my
memory up as I dig deeper into my-
self.
In the mean time I meditate several
times a day and this helps me to not
dwell on fears. I have to be especially
careful of fears and boredom, both
could send me back to hell again. Oh
yes, I do fear God, I don't know how
to get over that one.
In the mean time I am a sober alcoholic
veteran trying to stay that way.
Author: Alden Morrison
